Long Gone

You are long gone now.
I have traveled across the sea.
Your ship is gone.

Trust, Love, Blindness

In trust,
I gave.

I lost in your gain,
I was there, you were not.
I had faith,
You let me down.

In love,
I looked toward the stars.

I believed and I fell.
You fell and couldn't stay.
I didn't see the pain,
Though it was clear upon your face.

In blindness,
I looked away.

Clearly, I ignored,
As you did to me.
I'm left with the hurt,
And the regret I did not earn.

Pomegranate

Fruit of the Underworld.
Juicy arils burst at hand.
Save me from hunger.

Winter Running

Cool, windy winter,
Running with it at my back.
Trail beneath my feet/

Hurt and Rage

Fiery, red heart.
Ablaze and unquenchable.
Forgotten never.

Fallen

You caught me falling.
I was in love with you then.
You let me fall down.

Where is my Head?

My head is nowhere.
Where could it have gone off too?
The sky or the earth?

Avarice

Greedy people here,
Laying in their filthy ways.
Trust never again.

Unrequited II

He walks gently.
I yearned for him still.
He will never know.

Body Dysmorphia

Mirror distortion.
I refuse to believe that.
That isn't me now.

Glows

Hidden in the woods,
Eyes shining rather brightly.
Angry snarling.

Let Her Walk in Struts

She glides down the street,
Heels clacking on pavement.
Attitude drawn into pouty lips.
The people move, to clear her way.

She pounds the pavement beneath her,
It is beneath her.
Crimson lips and piercing hazels,
She doesn't care what you have.

She ignores the whistles and hoots.
She doesn't care.
She acts uptown in downtown.
She continues her fiery walk, strut and all to work.

Déjà Vu Dépression

It comes creeping in.
That . . . feeling.
A feeling I am most familiar with.
It's something I have not felt in some time.

A darkness most unfriendly.
A type of dark that casts its ugly shadow on me.
It wants to take over,
No . . . it can't.

Gleams of hope keep it just behind me.
Keep it by me.
Keep it away from me.
Drive it away . . .

Hope drives it away.
But it seems to creep, lurk.
Never gone.
Never far . . .

Broken Soul

I stand before you.
I was a whole man, you know.
My soul in pieces.

Le Chien

I chased after you,
Your tail wagging the entire time.
You wanted me to run after you.
Catch you way down the road.

Ears flopping,
Sprinting as I sprint to you.
You never tired,
Not even for a second.

You were scared when I caught up to you.
You had nothing to fear.
Your tail still wagging.
You listened and we kept on going.

Her Voice is Gone

Your voice was larger than life.
You inspired many a person.
Your voice forever gone now.

Bruits

Too much, overwhelmed.
Loudness overtakes me now.
All in my head, yes.

Bigger Lies

I fell for the lies.
I fell for every word you told me.
I trusted and hung on.
You slipped through the cracks.

I found your snake.
I cut the head off.
But it turned out to be a Hydra.
Your lies coming to life before me.

I couldn't handle so much at once.
I had to say goodbye.
You left me no choice,
So I left you in the dirt.

Agoraphobia

I put the outside world away from my mind.
Can I handle it today?
Will I runaway again like I did the day before?
I am destined to hide from the people.

Why not overcome the fear?
I can't possibly do it.
My fear of the outside.
The fear of letting people in.

I take one faithless step out the door.
The neighbor is out!
I try to sneak past before the hello comes.
They see me and wave.

I retreat back to my safe place.
Afraid to step out again.
My hunger will have to wait . . .
One day more.

I hide back into the very corner of my bedroom.
Window boarded up, no light, just dark.
I rock back and forth.
Unable to seek the help I truly need.

Double-edge

Oh, how you hurt me.
You shoved your sword inside me.
You left me for dead.

Pity, Pain, Stay, Alone

I stop,
I stand there in awe.
I see you from far away.
Alas, I cannot get to you.

You are too far off.
I run to you,
But you retreat farther.
You are but a speck in the distance.

Unreachable.
Unattainable.
I don't understand.
Why did you not take me with you?

I fall,
Unable to continue on.
My quest failed,
And my many questions remain as so.

Leave me here to suffer in pity.
Leave me here to suffer in pain.
Leave me here to just stay.
Leave me here to just be alone.

Depth

I am sinking low.
Into your bathtub of tears.
You save me never.

Ill-Rattled

You chose wrong.
Syringe of chemical hooks versus love.
Your battle lost.
You hurt your chances.

Years upon years,
That is who you preferred over me.
Your ill-riddled brain chose the hooks.
You may as well been cheating.

Cheating me of life,
Cheating me of everything we could have been.
I felt the burn of being on your back burner.

Were we even real?
Was this just another fantasy of mine?
Can I be trusted?
My world spinning out of control. . . .

I saw the needles.
A sight that cannot be unseen.
Etched in my mind.
I'm sorry you chose that instead of me.

I'm sorry you lost me.
I'm sorry you lost my heart.

Void and Shore

For someone . . .

How could I go along this dreary world?
Without you, my thirst is high.
My hunger heightened.
You are elsewhere, while I stare off.

Void, nothing.
I cannot see you . . .
You are lost.
Lost in your own blissful abyss.

I starve for your attention.
I want your love.
Too late.

You push me out of your whirlpool,
My boat forever afloat.
I never thought it'd be like this.
I'm away from you, away from you.

You spiral down.
I drift farther away.
I can't take your pain away . . .
Though it will always be with me.

I bid you farewell, darling.
I hope you make it to shore one day again.

Forest Run

As I run past the trees I am a flutter.
I am home,
Among the pine, the aspens, and willows.
I don't want to stop to take a breather.

From the corner of my eye, I see . . .
A forest nymph?
No, a bird flapping against the wind.
The frigid mountain wind.

My lungs fill up:
Inhale, frozen . . .
Exhale, warmth . . .
Inhale, frozen . . .
Exhale, warmth . . .

I stopped, at last, at the end of my path.
A fallen tree.
I pity it for a minute . . .
Then I start my journey over.

Running, running, running . . .
From an endless loop of thoughts.
As I lay in bed, sleeping a sweet dream of my forest run.