Rise in Pain and Fall in Love

For someone's initials I'm afraid to put up

You saw me there,
Next to you, starry-eyed.
Talking and listening,
Then he came in, I melted away.

Months went by.
Every time I saw you with him,
My heart tore away.
Breaking away,
Each piece ripping into two.

I hid my pain,
I hid my jealousy,
I had nothing to gain,
From things such as these.

Just as I was about to turn around,
You were back, goofy smile and all.
Heart mending slowly, pieces floating upward.
A well of happiness sprung within me.
I smile at you, you're back in my life.

I hug you tighter when you say goodbye.
I smile brighter, to show you I'm happy.
I look at you to remember you more.
I smell your cologne, so I remember who you are to me.

Alive

For someone's initials I'm afraid to put up

I see you there,
Sitting there, staring, talking.
Your voice travels like music,
Your muscles are tight against your shirt.

You stand up,
You're tall, towering me.
It doesn't seem like it from far away.
You see me, I turn away, shy.

You walk over to me,
To say your goodbye,
I feel hollow,
Until you embrace me.

Your hugs remind me of a summer evening,
Opening the door to step outside,
Feeling a warm breeze against cooled skin.
Until you pull away.

A flicker in your eyes, so blue,
Like lights turning on in a house.
You turn to leave; I turn to tears.
Hollow and alone.

Nature Speaks to Me About You

Nature speaks to me.
It speaks to me through the earth.
It speaks some truths,
While hiding the lies, they want to say.

The trees I climb,
So that I can touch the sky,
Say that you can touch the lowest branch,
That you are tall and can tower me.

The flowers in the vanity,
Their roots tangled together beneath the warm ground,
Say that your skin is soft like their petals,
And that they are jealous of your beauty.

The grass, in their lowly whispers,
The lawn vast and dotted with yellow,
Say that you love the smell it freshly cut,
And that you rest your head upon the fragile blades.

The dandelions speak of dreams,
Their color shines bright like hope,
Say you talk of one day seeing me,
And that you stare up to the sky and think of me.

The dirt, the very essence that is earth,
The very thing that begins life,
Saying you're strong like the bull,
And that your steps are steady and free.

Nature speaks to me.
It speaks to me in beautiful songs.
You are alive and well.
There are no lies, but only truth as they speak.

Under Pressure

I'm cracking under pressure,
Spidering glass.
If I drop, then I will break.

The glass may turn back into the sand.
The sand may return to earth.
The earth so dry,
The rain barely coming down.

I stand statuesque,
I stand carefully,
I don't want to budge.

Friends try to patch the broken pieces.
Comfort in my tears, alone.
Tears stream down unfixed cracks.
Within myself and I cannot bear it.

I shatter more with glassy tears.
I melt to the ground,
Lying down as the sun goes through me.

A Novel Idea of Love

For all that it is worth,
Our love changed The Games people played.

We were Matched,
But by our own accord.

We sat along the shore of the stream,
Catching Fire as it danced before us.

We Crossed the ling others drew,
Knowing it couldn't stop us.

Listening to the sounds of the woods,
Wishing to hear a Mockingjay, real and singing.

We Reached the point where we cannot turn back,
Everlasting and pure.

We live Divergent among the others,
Our paths never connect to theirs.

We are Insurgent,
Different in how society sees us.

Allegiant and on our own,
We found solace together and love.

Gentle and Free (My Heart Flies to You)

I dream,
I drop,
I fly.

Love in flight.
Dreams of you.
No choice to make,
It is your choice.

The further I fall,
It is when I'm with you.
My heart quivers,
And flies in your hand.

Be gentle,
Like if it were a butterfly.
Let it be free,
Like if it were a lion.

See me in it,
Like I see you.
If I see you,
It is in care.

I wake,
I flutter,
I land.

Chase

Rise and fall,
Chase to start.
Beauty exceeding all.
I see you and run.

You see me,
But I'm not beautiful.
I'm just plain like the grass under our feet.
I'm just scared because I can't speak.

Rise and fall,
Our chests do as such in unison.
Running for long,
Strides meet together.

Quiet...
Crickets sing...
Eyes boring into each other...
Sweat dripping...

Rise and fall,
I run toward you, but you are still.
When I get close, you run.
Now I'm pointing to the sky as you turn around.

Snake in the Grass

For J.S.

I cry a river,
Sobs uncontrollable.
You are cruel,
You are hateful.

I see deep blood red when you're around.
I know the things you have done.
You are wrong.
You are just so wrong.

You hit others with no cause.
You think you can control to keep your hold.
You are hideous.
You are bitter.

A venomous bite you have.
A dangerous charm to beware.
You are a threat.
You are a snake.

You lie and cheat skillfully.
Manipulating others to be under your wing.
You are malicious.
You are to be avoided.

To Be Part of the Earth

To hide in the earth,
To be beneath the soil.
To melt like snow,
To become a plant lost among trees.

To hide in the earth,
To be in the dirt, tilled and ground up.
To touch the sky like a wondrous oak.
Beneath the surface in a burrow.

A hollow tree, a hidden door,
Green like the leaves in spring.
The bloom of flowers to paint the scene.
Daisies, lilies, roses, and fuchsias.

Recluse and scared.
I just want to hide.
Sink to meet the heart of the earth.
Nature sees me as solitary.

To hide in the earth,
To be silent and deep.
To meet the roots of the trees,
To cage myself in the soil for good.

If You Are You

For L.C., C.W., N.B., & M.B.; for each of you my love IS different.

If you are you,
And I am I.
I will love you,
For all you are worth.

In it stands my compassion,
My passion.

When you are gone,
I just smell the scent of bark.
I wrap myself in silk,
Because it reminds me of your touch.

In it stands my grandeur,
My empathy.

When you are mad,
I stand alone and distant.
I build a wall,
So you can climb it.

In it stands my sadness,
My own anger.

If you are you,
And I am I.
I won't take for granted,
Your love that you share.

Walk in Beauty

I walk in beauty,
Striding fluidly like water.
Through the crowd, I go,
Unnoticed, but my eyes open.

Sunlight through blue eyes,
Blue eyes reflect in the sky.
Observing,
Careful to step and cross your path.

I sit and see a glance.
You see through the veil,
You see my smile.
At that moment, I am vulnerable.

You won't approach.
I stand, and you look away.
You can't look at the blue in my eyes.
You are beautiful, but you can't see it.

I walk away, my smile vanished.
Tears well and release.
Heart heavy and in my throat.
I may see you again, my only hope.

I walk in beauty,
Silent and sure.
I shine like the sun,
Like a fire in the morning.

Steady on the ground,
Balance like a crane.
Grace like a swan.
Wise like an owl.

If I saw myself like others do,
I'd be confident.
Yet I don't,
Because I learned human beauty doesn't last.

I walk in beauty,
Like the tall oak in Spring.
You see me again,
But only as I sleep.

Remanence of a Fire

Embers fly and fall to the earth.
Coals burn in ash.
A flicker of warmth,
And the last flames dance.

Reds and oranges burn in wood.
Yellow and blues mix together to breathe.

Bricks charred with black,
Where the fire licked it.
Wood cracked like black rock canyons,
Scarred by flames.

Greys like a wizened man,
Spread under a wooden prison.

Water stained soil and ash.
Smoke flies to the sky.
Fire smoldered.
Memory remains.

Sparks will fly again,
But on a different night they will dance once more.