We Haven't Talked in Awhile

For Z.J.H.


The very person that made my heart soar higher,
The very person who knows my soul,
The very person who can look me in the eye and
tell me how he really feels.
We haven't talked in a while.

It feels like forever,
Even if it's been a couple months.
I often look to the stars to think that
you, too, are looking at them with me.

I loved you when I was with someone else.
I couldn't help it...
You have my heart beating inside of yours.
In truth, I must venture a guess that I never loved him.

I would see your picture every night I talked to him.
I had abandoned you,
I had hurt you in some way.
I needed your forgiveness.
I needed to see your face.
I needed to see your dazzling smile...

I still hold onto memories of us that night.
Our first of many kisses strung together in the rain.
You're the light that keeps me going from day-to-day.
It turned off, and I lost my way.
Lost in the forest of confusion.
A confusion that was caused by the move of my folks.

Nothing stops me from weaving these words together.
I will spill my heart out, and the world will know.
I need to see that you are loved.
I need to see the light in your brown eyes.
I need to feel your red hair through my fingers.

I want your heart to soar with mine.
I want your love to surround me like your embrace.
I want you to notice that I need you to love me back.