Adonis: A Complex

I stand in front of the mirror...
All I see is that my body isn't good enough.
I'm not muscular...
I lift, and I lift, but I see nothing.
Nothing is achieved, and no next goal...

Is there something wrong? My diet, maybe?
Do I need to do more? Eat more?
Am I too skinny? Do I look fat?
Why do I question myself?
Why do I have this constant need to improve?

I'm looking at all these other guys who
have what I want...
A body to be proud of...
Muscle, masculinity, sweat dripping down their faces.
I want that so badly, but I feel my body can never reach
that potential.

I'm ashamed of my body...
I'm ashamed at myself for feeling this way...
I'm ashamed of not being perfect...
I'm ashamed of my thoughts...

I want to be beautiful, strong, and stop some hearts...
I want to view the world like it sees me...
I need to be freed from the complex of Adonis...