Agoraphobia

I put the outside world away from my mind.
Can I handle it today?
Will I runaway again like I did the day before?
I am destined to hide from the people.

Why not overcome the fear?
I can't possibly do it.
My fear of the outside.
The fear of letting people in.

I take one faithless step out the door.
The neighbor is out!
I try to sneak past before the hello comes.
They see me and wave.

I retreat back to my safe place.
Afraid to step out again.
My hunger will have to wait . . .
One day more.

I hide back into the very corner of my bedroom.
Window boarded up, no light, just dark.
I rock back and forth.
Unable to seek the help I truly need.