If I Were Not Afraid...

For Z.J.H.


If I were not afraid, I would tell you how much you mean to me.
Being so far apart from you is incredibly difficult, and not seeing you breaks my heart.

My heart speaks out to you, "Please come back to me! Please just come back!"
You're the person I can talk to about anything,
and you listen no matter what comes out of my mouth.
To hear your voice on a rainy and dreary day makes me smile,
and just a simple "hi" is enough for me to know you are doing just fine.

Every day I feel thoughts come into my head about you,
mostly worry, but never sad.

I will one day feel your warm embrace, kiss you on your lips,
and whisper in your ear how much you mean to me and that I truly love you.
I want to feel your fingers run through my hair,
and let you whisper in my ear and tell me the same.

I am not afraid to love you, and that is all I'd tell you.
Will you say the same to me?