Déjà Vu Dépression

It comes creeping in.
That . . . feeling.
A feeling I am most familiar with.
It's something I have not felt in some time.

A darkness most unfriendly.
A type of dark that casts its ugly shadow on me.
It wants to take over,
No . . . it can't.

Gleams of hope keep it just behind me.
Keep it by me.
Keep it away from me.
Drive it away . . .

Hope drives it away.
But it seems to creep, lurk.
Never gone.
Never far . . .

Broken Soul

I stand before you.
I was a whole man, you know.
My soul in pieces.

Le Chien

I chased after you,
Your tail wagging the entire time.
You wanted me to run after you.
Catch you way down the road.

Ears flopping,
Sprinting as I sprint to you.
You never tired,
Not even for a second.

You were scared when I caught up to you.
You had nothing to fear.
Your tail still wagging.
You listened and we kept on going.

Her Voice is Gone

Your voice was larger than life.
You inspired many a person.
Your voice forever gone now.

Bruits

Too much, overwhelmed.
Loudness overtakes me now.
All in my head, yes.

Bigger Lies

I fell for the lies.
I fell for every word you told me.
I trusted and hung on.
You slipped through the cracks.

I found your snake.
I cut the head off.
But it turned out to be a Hydra.
Your lies coming to life before me.

I couldn't handle so much at once.
I had to say goodbye.
You left me no choice,
So I left you in the dirt.

Agoraphobia

I put the outside world away from my mind.
Can I handle it today?
Will I runaway again like I did the day before?
I am destined to hide from the people.

Why not overcome the fear?
I can't possibly do it.
My fear of the outside.
The fear of letting people in.

I take one faithless step out the door.
The neighbor is out!
I try to sneak past before the hello comes.
They see me and wave.

I retreat back to my safe place.
Afraid to step out again.
My hunger will have to wait . . .
One day more.

I hide back into the very corner of my bedroom.
Window boarded up, no light, just dark.
I rock back and forth.
Unable to seek the help I truly need.